Re: Sourcing of Sponsorship

Till now, the response for sponsorship
since last posting was none, zero.
Am so sad.
Why nobody wanna sponsor?
It'll be doing a good deed man.
Maybe i shld post some pics
of my problematic areas
the next time i post.
Hurmmmm..
Yeah, think i will do it.
Mayb in a day or two time.

*ATTENTION*
Sponsorer look out!!!

Cousin and family reached safe and sound.
Been playing a small host to them.
Niece was cute and plummy.
Jus makes u wanna pinch her cheeks

BBQ yesterday was rather short n sweet.

Think i finally found a job.
i guess!!! (Finger crossed)
Its a job i have interest in but
its not my dream job.
Delimma again.

If nothing's wrong might jus go
ahead and join the cycling trip to Tioman.
It's tough or insane to some
but yeah might jus give it a shot
Mental and Physical training
Challenge of will power
Breaking ur limitations.

July 15 is the day.
5Kg to 9 Kg lost possible?
My goal.
Just do it.
Wish me all the best.

Elvis granny passed away.
Went to the wake jus now.
He seem fine.
My condolenses anyway.

Saw the person finally
Since 4 mths 4 days ago.
It's a point of avoid till
no way to avoid anymore
Thinking that,
Hey, it been 4 months,
the hurt and pain inside
might not be painful
nor hurtful anymore.
I might just felt
or the very least only
a slight pain inside!!!

I was wrong.
Very wrong.
The moment i see the person
The pain and hurt was
welling up my heart and was
EXCRUCIATING.
The happy and joyful
the person expression is
the more painful it felt.

i did my best to talk to everyone
around me, kept myself busy toking
except to tat person.
avoiding eye contact with.
it just wretches my heart
to see hw blissful and happy
the expression and aura elude
from tat person.
Hai~
Pathetic me.
Wallow in my own self pity.
Perish me to hell.

It'll never be the same again.
Never.

*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
4:32 AM and they said..

Monday, June 11, 2007

Looking back at previous post,
it had been almost 2 months by a few days
since i last posted.

25th May marked my last day
with my ex-company now.
Everyone was sweet to me on my departure.
Recevied great farewell gift and lunches.
Oh even my vendors gave me a farewell gift too.
Pretty much explained my good PR skill huh!!!
Felt pretty sad to leave actually,
if not for the bad biz for company,
i will be able to get a extend of my contract,
as spoken together with boss b4 US says NO
ER invites me to go over their side in July,
but its really not my interest area of HR though.
It'll be a very good learning exposure
of other HR area.
Tats a fact i can't deny.
But ultimately, i want to return back to my old team
if given a choice or opportunity to...
Great boss and nice team work,
lots of stuff to learn still which i've not
have chances to learn ...
Projects to take on as discuss with boss.
Bonus is can wear causal.
Near my place.

Was lucky to be given a job offer by STB at 1.6K/-
But considering the location (Out of way)
Surround food prices (Double of elsewhere)
Minus and plus ard
I be having less than $100 for spending.
(No promise of review salary after 3 mths)

Ps: i am not trying to be picky on job,
its a real hard truth i need to face

On bright side, i am given opportunities to attend
a few interviews already.

But what do i really wants deep inside my heart?

Ans: It's impossible to achieved it bah....

It gets depressing just to think of it man...
No Looks No Shape No Talents
What am i good at?
Eating, Lofting and Sleeping.
Basically a good for nothing BUM ASS.

Guess the Vitamin M for $$$$
could solve it ???
$ for plastics surgery,
$ for education,
$ to learn a skill for talents

Some sad news for me and good to them:

My dear frend Darren is gng to Aussie
on the 7th July for his Degree
Thanks to UNSWA.

Zhehan my Han Han is gng to Scotland
Think same day as Darren too

(See wat abundance wif Vitamin M aka $$$
can do???)

7th July 2007
also marks the
Wedding for ShuXian and Chee Fai
our dear old big Xian Jie nickname: Nun

(Second person to wed in our grp)

Third and coming is Jason & Peixuan o
n Jan 2008

7th July is also the fellowship anniversary.

Busy and eventful and packed day huh 070707


Oh as promised by cousin, she and hubby
n fatty butt daughter will be in SGP coming
Friday 15th June.
Think being the most free person at the moments,
I shall be the tour guide bah.
Hehzzzz Sentosa and Zoo here i cometh.

16th June is BBQ and blood donation day.
(Please give blood, Please save lifes)
Hopefully i be able to go if time permits.

Being unemployed now, gotta budget my spending.
Meaning no shopping or buying of unnesscessory stuff
till i got a job.

Am wondering why i am here since
i am so useless...
Fat and ugly is a SIN.
Can someone sponsor me for a exteme makeover
I need that for my self esteem,
pride and self confidence.
My dream job.
Oh God bring me home to you.
Its torture to be FAT n UGLY here.
Dying in spirit and hope in physical.
End it please.


*********ADVERTISMENT*********
Sponsorship of Extreme Makeover
*Help someone dying inside*
to find back

Some pretty neat song and lyrics that i felt strongly to.

错了再错

Title：错了再错 By：张栋梁

歌词：

退到了绝境再退 破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么 你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲 绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎 我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下

Chorus:
我可以痛了再痛 你可以错了再错
不甘心 不闪躲 只为那失真的承诺

我转身让你换着活 你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
(为什么连谎言你也不说 )


爱或痛彼此纠结 悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累 成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水 背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口 泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧

即使我头也不回 这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁 别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我

Ps: Been cornered, shattered to million pieces, suffered from your lies, love and pain mixed up, rather you stab me or shoot me. Your heartlessness is my only comfort, betrayal your perfect reason. You burst the lies by making use of my compassion, knowing the fact that for a promise made, no matter how many times i've been hurt or wrong being done to, i will endure. HOW TRUE!!!