-----The Oc Life----

Friday, February 23, 2007

A very Happy Lunar New Year to all folks.

Everybody just seems to distant one another recently.
Jess, WR, Bob and Mervin actually hang out without jio_ing.
Everyone jus seems so scattered.
And tat is saddening to happen.

Guess there is no such thing as
Everylasting Friendship
in this world.
It's a Fairytale ?
else,
It's jus very very hard to find it.

This world jus seems so gloomy and dark
Bored and lifeless.
Degraging and saddening to be living in.
Grant my wish and let me go FAST.

Happy for Darren tat he got back with his gal on Vday.
Cool and great. Sad and lonely no more dude.

The bleeding just never stops.
The hurting just never got lesser.
Who cares?
Who will cares a shit hoot?
Where is the love?
Where is the concern?
Where is the company i need?
When i needed you all most?
My friend you called ya self to be mine!
My presence, My Existence
Is redundant in the world.
I believed so.
If i vanishes from the eye of the world,
will people i know realised it?
I doubt they will.
That's the reality.
Wake up. Wake up.
From the fairytale i believed in.
The Fairytale of "True Friendship and Love"
Where is the Love?

There is this book called "Where is GOD, when it's hurting".
And i am currently asking this question myself.
Being having this book and read it before. Yet, still i am asking this
very question myself. Because i really did not sees or sense his presense
at all. I needed help, i needed love and care and others stuff i asked from.
But was not given nor answered.
I admitted it.
I have lost faith, hope and love.
I have lost myself completely.
Show me thy way if i am not yet forsaken by
Lead me thru the valley for i am lost
Guide me the pathway to go where i could find the joy n happiness i once lost
Open my way where i should be trotting.
Bring me back to thy side in eternal
Or
Perish me to Hell if i am really being forsaken by
Cos i am really really tired tired of this world and everything around me.
I am sick of it all
I am living dead at heart.

*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:01 AM and they said..

Friday, February 02, 2007

I MISS YOU DAD.

I am neither Brave nor Strong at all.
I am far from these areas.

I'm tired le.
Can i come to you?
Please.

*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:35 AM and they said..

PROTECTIVE COLORS

Everything living things in the world have
their own ways of protecting themselves.
Plants will have a certain smell/ poison or thorns.
Animal will have sharp teeth claws or fur even
a stinky fart, or thorns like the porcupines.
Insects will have scary patterns on their wings
like the butterfly or sting like the bee.

Humans?
We uses lots of 101 methods to protect ourself.
We lied to escape from certain issues or punishment.
We are fierce to others to not get bullied.
We bullied others.
We keep a distances from ppl.
We behave or act in certain ways tat is not our true self.
We blend in the crowd doing what everyone is doing.
We put on a false front like being alright and happy
when in actually fact we are not at all.
e.g. we give our blessing when our ex- found a new guy/girl
which you are actually so in love with them still.
and there's more ...

Like the cameleon, we had our protective colors on all times
every single mins and hours of our life we are changing colors
to protect our small little fragile heart from brusies, cuts and getting hurt.
We, whom they claim to be king and head of all living things.
The most intelligent mammal i guess tat wat term humans as by scientist.
Funny huh!!!

*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:15 AM and they said..