Saturday, May 06, 2006
RANDOM THOUGHTS RUNS WILD
Alot haf gone thru my mind.
Some with answers some without.
Some are left it as it is some discard some proceed.
My brain r in a mix right now that i gng crazy soon...
I am breaking down i guess.
the election is coming up like today and yeah i got to vote my very first time.
But its kinda boring issue to me .. as i am like queueing up n vote etc...
i dun know but just not interested in it.
Well, lots of stuff happening recently due to GE.
Goxxx is one issue...
And on tat, haaaa is bad. though they said it like nothing big or an issue but
to me
it is an issue ... as ppl who knows me ... to lied is something i cannot accept..
and to me .. as a leader ..trust n belief is wat the citizen put n entrusted into... thus if someone lied as a leader... dun think will b a good one
i mean if u lied where is the integrity then?
u in no position to tok abt trusting and believing in u esp integrity n moral at all
Thats is to me at least...
Plus we are toking abt the gahmen, world map, national issue here... all the more characters n moral is v impt ....
i personally dun wan a rapist or a someone who have bad moral to be my leader ... seriously...
hahzzz too political liao .. not good....
back to something lighter....
Thai trip is coming ... but been giving it lots of thoughts
Was feeling like ... i go n they go those dirty places which i dun thus no point i go at all...
probs is now i got some shopping list from frends and mum ... so unless they r willing to help me buy i got to go myself... mum side if she know i forfeit the air tickets she sure be damn pissed at me for wasting $ yet i cannot tell her abt them gng dirty places... Frend side i cannot bear to reject helping buy stuff for... how?
Ask tat bloody horny pervertic kuku Ivan ... help me buy he dun wan...
So troubled......
He still got the audacity to ask me go then when they go dirty places ask me go watch movie alone ... Tats ATROCIOUS lar... i dun spend so much $ to watch movie alone at thai ... which part of ur brain is not working...
Troubled , Delimma , Sad
Reasoning .. is
I felt that the girls working at tat type of places is pitiful enuff they wont need horny pervert man to step on it ...
If the luv the job then i look down on them then and no way am i spending $ on them letting them earn it ...
I detest ppl who degrade themselves selling body n meat for $ ...
Well
its the same rational that i dun wan to knw/dates girls i know frm clubbing ... its a stand ...
Cos i club is for the drinks n music ... n girls who club ... wont go for luv there more of fling i guess...
Hai~
Oh asked alot of ppl ... and guess alot ppl dun know it...
Mother's day is the second week of MAY guess alot ppl knew it ... but
Father's day is the third week of JUNE which guess many ppl dun know
Been moody recently, felt empty and hollow inside...
I've loose faith in everything anything ....
Friendship is one big thing
People is another
Works too
Everything jus messed up n farked up
Realised i putting too much into friendship which is WRONG something very WRONG.
I shld n have learnt the lesson ...
Not putting too much emotion n feelings into this thing call "FRIENDSHIP"
Haven i learnt my lesson , have not i been hurt by it much enuff?
Why then?
Realised KuKu Ivan and grp affects me alot...esp KUKU Ivan
I dun know why
His action and everything affects me ... i can be easily pissed by him hurt by his words yet the same words n action is not tat hurtful by others....
Wat am i becoming ... i gng MAD
The way i treat him is like beoming another N
Or am i replacing N with him?
Cursed me ... wat am i doing .... stupid of me... bitten once n not scare
Think i shld refrain from seeing them too often .. better distant myself from him esp...
Haa wat am i saying ... he dun even bothers bout me ... he is closer to Jingliu...
Oh jus learnt something ...
Its called " ren yu ren zhi jian de ju li gan" meaning the distance_ship between human.
Well, its jus saying 2 person standing together might not means they r v close.
Whereas even if 2 person are apart .. they can be v close at heart.
The person made a simple example by calling 3 person out of the class...
And 2 of them stands close n 1 not tat close ... so he said
See!!!
How u know they are close or not is v easy
If u r close naturally u two will stand /sit/ eat together closely... if u r not u wont..
its human nature to act tis way... jus observe... u see u know u find out
Which i find it very true....
take KUKU for instance... when we r out he always stand close to Jingliu eating n watching movie will sit together ... he will take initiative to walk close n tok to him...
yet he still deny it
the point is ... though we r a grp ... i sense the distance between him n me ... and that is saddening.
As i reply Claudia in tag
I am easily affected by how ppl view n say me.
I "jie yi" very much
I dun like to be left out
dun like to be forgotten
dun like to be the last choice last option (put it tis way, a grp of ppl whenever there is a choice or opinion u will not asked first or worst not asked at all)
get it?
yeah ... u cld call me attention seeker ... or lack of security bah
no confidence? yeah greatly i dun haf it ...
Till then ....
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
12:16 AM and they said..
