Sunday, November 27, 2005
Have been missing for some time.
Jus because i was lazy to not jus blog but even to jus be turning on the computer n log on to net.
Been facing the computer inside the "prison" too much that i tries not to touch it as much as possible bah....
Each time i got home on fri or sat...
I am so so so exhausted n tired that i jus drop down and ZZZzzzzzzzzzzz the whole day / weekend
I also dunno why...
Guess its too mind wreaking and brain exhausting bah...
It's busy busy and busy inside.
Busy with this and that
Busy with duties and work
Busy to help ppl settle their shittiezzzzzzz
Busy to help ppl cover back side
Busy with upcoming inspection
Busy with the events coming up
Busy with the courses starting on monday
Stressful and busy is all in my mind
Plus to make matter worse for me ... they are bloody inefficient
Do you believe it? the course is starting tis coming monday which is tml to be exact and they dun even have the namelist of the ppl attending the course ready.
I mean... aren't the number of personnel and who is attending all fixed and planned long time ago?
FARKED UP
is all i can say abt the system
ANW ... arhhhhhh
Me and another person is made in charge of the whole course to learn the rope and get the hang of it becos our senior or old bird we called it ... saes we need to be in it to able to learn better with experiences...
Well true i said too... hehzzz
exhausting i shld say
Wat to do ? Why? When ? Where ?Who? becomes my frequent questions and action
Ask questions became my best frend... Hehzzz
Well lots to learn i said
Can i do this Can i do tat?
Why do this n not tat?
Guess i am freaking everyone out
haaaaaaaa
I believed that alot of things have happens in the "prison"
Tat makes everyone unhappy and pissed.
The most recent one is on thursday.
this guy whom i shall not name,
told everyone tat the duty on fri have been changed to a full day duty instead of the usual.
So it becomes a rather big hoo haa tat nite
Finding ppl to replace one of the guy as he was on half day off the next day as he is still doing something at the port still... (till 3am)
And to find someone to replace is hard as its so LAST MINUTE where everyone had plans
So it turns out our boss says who do got 2 points instead of the normal 1 points for doing duty...
No one wanted it
So becomes 4 points for doing it ... Still no one wants it
Then boss was rather pissed, and finally said 1 day off for doing it
and then the guy they called says: No, u give me off also no use i dun get to clear it ...
Boss was pissed and threathen to confine us all for tis...
I mean... unreasonable rite?????? confine for not wanting to do someone duty
Its so last minute plus he thinks a day off is big FARK, as if we have no life no frends no home
so in the end a guy who was to be confine for sat sun do it .... and the poor guy have to do duty on fri till sat morning report to ppl in charge on sat morning do his confinement till mon morning not able to go home ...sobzz
Wat happen on fri was tat its actually a rumour and fake info.... then ask the guy who said it who he heard from
he said dunnnooo not sure whether its from guy A or B....
Bcos of his kuku cock up and rumour all this would not happen
and boss wont be angry and the trouble of everythiing wont happen
Where the actual guy cld still do his duty as usual.
Thanks man u kuku asshole
Hopefully after all this busy period till jan, i cld get a good rest and dwn period to take a breather....
and yes hopefully a good reward from the top as promsed but yeah they always blurf us and cheat us of it.
Why ? simple....
Cos we are us lowly nobodies who fark off after 2 yrs
Ass holeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hai~ enough of all
Yeah met up with the dream team and have fun shoppng eating and chatting
But where my2 angels gone to?
Where is wr, ken sophie shirley claud darr, shaz etc...
Miss yaaaaaaaaaaa allllllllllllll
Yeah we plan a sentosa beach volleyball outing on the 17th dec
All ya who sees it are invited to join and go
Confirm is me jess jacq marc mervin n sophie
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:00 AM and they said..
Friday, November 04, 2005
Welcome, its the time of the days of my whinning period.....
hehzzz
Yeah yeah yeah .... i love to whin...
I've kept asking myself and HIM why?
I've wonder why
Why am i not good looking
Why am i not having good build
Why am i not tall enough
Why am i not talented
Why
Why
Why
Its hovering in my mind my small pea brain
I mean u take a good look around u around orchard rd ard anywhere
There are so many good looking ppl ard but i am not part of it
There are so many talented ppl ard but i am not one of them
Well, if u r talented n good lookers WOW congrats
If u r not talented , ur good looks make it up for it
If u r not good lookers, ur talent make it up
If u r not tat talented, jus normal looker ur height make it up
If u r short, ur talents / looks make it up
If u have neither looks /talents/ or height etc... u will have a rich family to be in
Somehow somewhat there is something to make it up
BUT
i am neither tall nor got looks not got talents to make it all up
I'm jus a worthless piece of shit...
Hai~~
OH GOD why u create me in the first place then
OH why let me exist at all
IF u plan for me to be created then why am i not given a good looks
or even a talent
or even a good rich background...
Am i meant to be the pathetic few who exist to waste oxygen waste land usage who r ugly untalented nor rich ?
I wish to die then
let me die
I mean , for someone who dun need ppl to tell them that they r ugly but to realised it themself means they really r ugly
and i am ugly to start with....
For starters...
I've got small eyes .... a double eyelid n a single eyelid for the others ...(pathetic)
I've got big flat nose (too bad i 'ain not jacky)
I've got fat fat fat all over
I'm short
I'm untalented
I'm have real bad complexion real bad
I'm poor
I'm stupid
.... and more
Well, when ppl say tat erm... at least u got legs others dun
at least u can see while others cannot etc.....
Tats is self deceiving of yourself
Tats bullshitting
When ppl tell u ppl looks at inner beauty and not outer looks
Tat ... is ULTIMATE BULL SHIT
If so why is there idol thingy
Why is there beauty salon
Why got plastic surgery
Why ppl go for facial
i think i got a
Low self esteem
Low self confidence
Can singapore have a programme called
EXtreme of the Extremes makeover???????????
Then let me join and had one
or some kind plastic surgeon sponsor me???
I can be free model for ur clinic
or some kind-hearted soul can sponsor me ???
LET ME FIND MYSELF MY CONFIDENCE MY SELF ESTEEM
So u cannot blame me for killing my child next time if they r born ugly
I wont let them tread my old path
I wont let them gone thru the yrs of being said by ppl for
U ugly shit u fat asshole
We dun play with fatty
Fatty cannot play soccer
Sorry our shop dun sell ur size
NO i wont let my child go thru tat
I admit... i love $ and i really love it alot
Why?
Cos with $ u cld do alot of stuff
I cld let my mum lead a better life
I cld get the stuff i needed
I cld do my plastic surgery
I cld lead a better not luxery life though
If u gone thru my child hood u know tat $ is impt
$ can help us alot
Have u ever taken plain porridge for mths only to go with "cai xin" or light soya sauce?
I did tat
All bcos we got no $
So now i dun mind spending abit more $ to eat better .
All in all , i jus wanna to be RICH
Or to have good looks so i cld go into good jobs like modelling or watever (social escort?) i dun mind for $ sake
to earn big bucks
Or with a talent to earn $ also
SO all i wants is with a purpose
is with a good purpose.
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:55 AM and they said..
