Friday, December 31, 2004
FAREWELL CARPARK HELLO SIGNAL
Received my posting today (30/12) and i be going to signal.
I will be at STAGMONT CAMP.
Somewhere at Choa Chu Kang.
Die sia.. from the east to the west.
Well gotta learn all the signal used in the SAF,
YEAH clear SOC with signal set
YEAH a "bai kar" how to "chiong" sia....
Well at least i didn't kanna the
COMBAT MEDIC rite!!!
hehzzz its all in GOD's hands.
Guess the slack days at AA carpark is over
Time to get dirty n shag n suffer
9 weeks will soon be over
Soon i hope
hai~
Thus lemme enjoy the last few relax days before i report on
03/01/05 , 0800am
Oh ya saw Shiyuan in tekong today, WOw he was " tortured" till very thin now. So poor thing rite, yep was going towards the ferry terminal and he was busy wiping weapon then he suddenly smiled WIDELY n WAVE at me... GOSH everyone ard him looked at my direction including his SIR thinking he so shag liao still can smile n wave thought he "crazy" liao waving to nothing then they saw me... so embarassed sia...
Fri 31/12 1800hrs- Steamboat dinner at MingRen aunt home with the SU gangs
2300hrs- Thanksgiving service
Sat 01/01 Morning - Buying of Food for the BBQ at evening
Sun 02/01 Hopefully could meet up with my BMT mates miss them so much
OH MAN i missed everyone so much.... RAchel girl where have u dissappeared to? Claudia hw r u? Jacq u too, Jess missed u , Sand my undergrd why have thou forsaken me? Sophie n Shirley where r u two? Got BF no AH FATT huh... WR MR MERV MARCUS ED SHAUN SHAZ DARR i miss u allllllllll
I MISS MY BMT buddy ziqiang, shiyuan, xiao pervert, moley, birdshit, leon, han ming, whole of Hawk 01
Dammne
-_-
Pissed days -13
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:03 AM and they said..
Sunday, December 26, 2004
CHRISTMAS ISN'T CHRISTMAS
Finally the DAY is over.
After carolling on the 24thDEC
WOW my first Xperience ever man... i carol at NTUC resort. So embarrasing.
But it was a good try in front of public plus BBQ pits felt like singing in a suana!!!
hehzz all for the good cause and will of GOD. Wats better? I'm Singing for my LORD.
Then at the last home- the lecky home
Guess wat? I almost ZZzzzzzzz during the short sermon .. guess i am too tired after all the hastle from
24th DEC
Army 5.50am till 10.30am
Rush to
Market 10.45am till 11.30am
Prepare Food
Food 11.45am till 2pm
SLACK till 2.45pm
Wrap DUMPLINGS
2.45pm till 4.30pm
RUSH to collect log cake plus putting food at MAY's Home
Reach her place - 5.45pm
Reach church - 6.30pm
Carolling - 7pm
Ends 25th DEC 0015hrs
Eat slack n play
Reach MAY's home 0100 plus hrs
Slack EAt Play EXchange gifts
3 plus Morning
Go home 4 am
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
25thDEC 1300 hrs wakes up
ROT in front of TV till 1530 hrs then rush out to Church
1600hrs celebration
1950hrs reach home
2100hrs leave home to meet a friend
2345hrs reach home
Phewsss .... (those who ate better appreciate)
When giving out the Presents ... was struggling
Struggling whether to give that person/" thing" the present.
Actually was already struggling when i was deciding to buy or not
In the end brought it
and today was
Give or not
In the end asked help from
Ur friendly neighbourhood hero- Spiderman
to passed it to him as dun really wanna talk to tat "thing" now
Then that "thing" came to wishes Merry Christmas
Yeah i did a unwilling handshake felt that it will embarrass "tat thing"
cos everyone is there..
so under pressure to do it. GOSHhhhhh
Thinking back i should not have give huh!!!
The fact is i am still damm PISSED huh
Never knew being PISSED at someone is so tiring.
FORGET THE UNWORTHY AND GO ON TO THE HAPPY SIDE
Yeah Xian jie was here today with her bf.. too bad she had to rush off for her movie anw missed her so much pray tat GOD will bring her back to us.
Yes, Laurel jie too, so happy she is here n she had quitted her job - tat req sunday to work job
and hopefully she will come back to us too. Pray that God will make her overcome all probs be it BGR or watever.
And was it alot peepz baptised today???? U BET!!!
So glad alot peepz baptise and join us big family
CUte babies n children to grow up amongst us.... COOL
Yeah went up to the children sunday school jus now
Taught by the chin lien student
Er rather disappointed lar
Its really a turn off for english speaking children or chinese phobic child
Personally me a Chinese speaking youth too get turn off
- the accent too strong
- Chinese too "chiem"
- Children whom dun like chinese total OFF mode n refuses to join
- Not "jumpy" enough note tat it is a children thingy ministry
BUT
their effort in decorating, preparing n teaching is admirable
PISSED day - 7days
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:30 AM and they said..
FIRE
A fire is good and nice when it is small.
It brings warmth to people and
brighten things up
You feels nice around it.
But
When the fire gets big
Its too glaring
Too dangerous
That
It instilled FEAR in you
That how it is with a person.
If that person shines too glaringly
You felt short and dim beside
You felt a distances between the two of you
People tends to put attention to that person and not you
Isn't it so?
When you look up at night for the stars
Do you not notice the most bright ones and
miss out the dimmer ones?
When you look at people,
don't you notice the better lookings ones and
paid less/no attention to the below average?
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:09 AM and they said..
Thursday, December 23, 2004
TOOTH FAIRY
I need tooth fairy to took away the pain in my tooth .... dammn blame it on myself for having too much of a wisdom to get the wisdom tooth hehzz.
Let me recount... it happens last week till err now... WOW .. went to the bloody tekong to see the bloody Dentist ard 11.30am last friday and guess wat!!! the Medic n Dentist went for LUNCH . Ask the other medic when will they be back? 2pm.
I was damme shocked and pisssed . Who in the hell need 2.5hrs to eat a bloody LUNCH? Yeah i know , them
NVM, i went again on tues and yeah they were there !!! Then i cannot see the bloody DENtist cos need an appointment where
HEY THE DENTIST IS FREE AND WALKING ARD THE OFFICE TALKING
Cool i fill in the appt card n asked can i fix appt for today since its free? Nope came the answer. Pissed lvl upped
Then i fixed it for next tues.
They better Pluck my tooth out tat day dun jus consultation i dun wanna go back there again to pluck.
till then......
OUCHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:55 AM and they said..
WELCOME BACK TO SINGAPORE DAVID
HEy bro welcome back safe n sound .....
be awaiting ya pressence amongst us
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:08 AM and they said..
Monday, December 20, 2004
SUCKY SUNDAY
Have you ever been to someone in an quarrel, conversation, to someone special, to someone leaving for long time or even to someone dying soon or suddenly, that at the very very moment words that you wanna to say just would not comes out? Its like it is stuck inside or suddenly you turn mute or you choose not to say a word at that moment.
Then you just regretted it very much later after that?
Keep reviving the words you should or you wanted to say at that moment, those unkind words, those words of care and love, those words that you should yet you didn't.
And you keep reprimanding yourself of it.
I just did that today.
Well, I am so pissed so upset so ... so "bu shuang".
These mixed emotions...
Argh... just let me wallow in my own self pity and perish in hell at one corner.
Sheesh ... thats hurts!!!
I dun know why i felt so, I dun know why
Just that at that very moment, I dun wanna speak to that person.
Because I know that if I do, I would said words that are hurting and destroys everything.
I dun want that to happen.
In that person's blog wrote that tat person blood boiled when I dun reply him, sees him as transparent and just walked straight away.
MINE BLOOD BOILED EVEN MORE
it accumulates from times and again...
GO SHOPPING with someone else
GO watch MOVIE nvm but a MOVIE which u had watched before
Hey who's the one who dun like shopping!!! AND complains it everytimes about shopping
YET could go with someone from 2+ till late at nite after 10pm???
Hey who's the one whom tink watching movie in cinema is EXPENSIVE and support pirated VCD and never watches same movie twice saying it is a waste of $$$$$.
WHO IS THE ONE whom saw me from 11am till 2 plus yet never talk to me at all when someone else whom came at 12 plus but talk non stop to?
GO ... GO.. and live ya own 2 person world be best of firends best of couple watever ya wanted to be.
I DUN CARE
She ask ya online to wait for her and ya did
Yet ya never did tat for anyone of us before?
Ya got each other company already enough,
Wat for need us for?
We are not tat important to you anyway.
OH GOSH ...
Why i care for you anyway since you dun even care abt us?
Why should i get myself into tis.
Care ya get hurt,
Care and Scare tat ya jump into the trouble water when ya says ya can do it yourself.
Why should all of us worried and concern for you?
YOU DUN DESERVE ALL THAT OKAY
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:28 AM and they said..
That's what friends are for
And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember
Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember
Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:55 AM and they said..
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
SISPEC/HQ - OOC
Was shocked when i go back on monday-13/12 to find out that all of them had done their FFI last week without me ... hurmp.... and all of them assume that i had done mine... wah lauuuuuuuuuuuuu but i OOC watttt....
Anyway, i immediately went to did my FFI (Fit For Infantry) that afternoon followed by endorsing it at sispec, all in one afternoon.
FFI REPORT
Unfit for 1 year
Unfit for BSLC Recourse
MO recommendation/remark:
-Specialist recommend not suitable for vocation that deal with great deal of stress.
Was scolded the same morning by staff Tan for being too slack in our job. Never bother to check cars, wear cap, wear pass etc... But we OOC watttt.... heee but the cars came everyday n we recongnise the owner wat so check them daily for wat... only new cars then we check wat.... anw..tat the first time he scolded us n was he not fierce siaa.... stunned...
The same day, evening went back to TP to meet shazzzzzz n darren they all for dinner after the OTC briefing. It was memorable man tinking back the days n stuff .... Grace, Zhehan, Stacie, Mingren was there too, some yr 1s n ex GL, LOG, FOOD, PROG, Admin cool... then had dinner n catching up with them great nite... with darren driving us . Missed u guys already.
Rizan, our AA carpark IC received his posting today. He was posted to Transport Spec reporting tml thus suddenly lost for us without him from tml onwards....plus sean on leave kinda short-handed now haaa thus changed my shift to morning from tml till fri as morning more important than evening. Taxi Fare $$$$$$$$ alot sia.... Lastly, wish him best of luck n everything Rizan , take care dudezz...
Wisdom tooth aching n gum swollen for 2 days and going on stronger..... (too much wisdom not good) if by fri still pain gotta see dentist to pluck it out.. damme tooth....
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
9:47 PM and they said..
Monday, December 13, 2004
DOWNs
As i haf said when there is UPs there is the reverse side.
Well i dunno i feel very troubled, uneasy n unsafe now.
I felt threathened, my standing in the group.
It feels as though anyone jus anyone could be jolly well be replaced as and when the tide flows
Be it with u ard or not...
Its like it makes no diff with u ard or not
I dunno i am really lost...
Throughout the trip, i realised that i lost a friend a friend i have always tried my best to keep n be my best.
It jus vanishes before you could grasp it.
During rides he could jus tok non stop to someone else but not me ... taking cabby rides with someone else not me... can even dun tok to me at all during the erm hour plus long trips or 7-9 hrs trips if i dun even make the first move!!!
I felt am such a Sore Loser....
I know i should not felt so since being friends with whom is a freedom of ownself
Jus like i could choose to befriend who n close to who without gurantee payback.
But i jus not "fu qi" a friendship of 8-9 yrs can't even amount to a friendship of mths!!!
Though always heard of no chemistry n stuff like tat... but ... i sense the chemistry n sparks n normally my 6th sense is very very accurate. And i felt the Hints of likeness...
And i jus so pissed when i overheard them going to movies ..... when i always asked him go he say waste $ watch pirated better, dun wan etc....
Sharing secrets!!!
Or i jus being unreasonable!!!
I DUN CARE
ok now i really PISSED....
AWAY FRM ME U far far AWAY.....
How i hope u never appear before
How i wish i never knew u
How i hope that i never treated u as my best frend
Oh maybe all that is my OWN WISHFUL TINKING.
Oh maybe u have never treated me as hw i treated u
as best frend
Guess i gotta keep a dist from u
To prevent myself from getting hurt deeper n loses the confidence n trust of Friendship.
AWAY FROM ME
AWAY FROM ME
and
NEVER COMES NEAR ME
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:57 AM and they said..
I'M BACK
Back on 11/12, reach 9 plus at nite where i took the 1.30pm bus from KL, woah the jam was killing.
Wah a great great great long break to a scenic n beautiful resort - (Kota Rainforest Resort) even though it rained for almost 3/4 of the 4 days yet the beauty is never diminish, but brings out the romantic side aka "si qing hua yi" n esp the morning rainbow on the sunshine morning.... totally blew us off.... I'M LOVING IT
The messages during the camp was also a blew off man. What i can say is that GOD really uses and bless us with a good speaker. OH ya the theme was UNITY n the passage were on the book of 1st corin.
Really inspired, editfying, strengthening , uplifting.
It makes me wanna change wanna persue deep down inside but on the other hand i am scare... yet i dunno why i am scare where i gt the one n only real GOD on my side. Hai~
The food was fab even with the gigantic flies u have ever seen, the atmosphere was cool n the fellowship we had - PRICELESS.
We swam even though it is raining.. n yes the whole resort is 90% booked by us... so the whole pool is us ...yes us alone with kids, babies, youths, adult together, totally sweet......
On the 9th we went up to KL, a long long trip to there.Took bus from Kota to Lakins then from there take bus to KL n reach KL ard 9 plus. Went to take our dinner after putting down our barang barang n back to ZZZz morning went to eat then another long trip to sunway but the rides was dissappointing. And then take our lunch at secret recipes ard 2 plus n do our main motives..... SHOPPING.... till 4 plus go back to TIME SQ there n Continue shopping spree... till ard 10 plus n Zzzzzzz there comes 11/12 go to KLCC n decided to stop there for half an hour to see see in the end had breakfast there n some shopping of cos... n heeee to the chinatown and walk walk ard helping frend get their stuff n then its time to go home....
Thru out took alot of pics but must wait till i know hw to unload it huh ...
Of cos when there is UPs there wil be DOWNs.....
Well its not good to name names huh.....
ermm u could say i being sensitive or over protective or pocessive.
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:13 AM and they said..
Monday, December 06, 2004
HIATUS MODE
Be off to my trip in 7 hours 37mins.
So excited abt tis trip cos it is really really a HARD TO GET one.
THANK GOD man... prayed so hard for it be it myself or my dear dear friends .
Cos hw could they leave without me man ... w/o me where is the FUN haaa kinda thick skinned of me ...
Yeah guess GOD had been guiding me along tis army life ba... placing very very nice ppl ard me.....
First was sgt Yi Cheng my BMT sect comm whom had been taking great care of me ever -thank you
then was my PC patrick, though look ah gong ah gong one "sor zai" but he treated us the best ever listen n cared for us - thank you
in SIspec Alpha,
was Sgt Aloysious my sect comm, taking great care n welfare to us.
Most Sgts was nice like erm sgt guan sgt siow,sgt thomas,sgt puva,sgt willip, sgt koh,sgt xia, sgt sim etc...
N alpha 2IC Warrant, who treat me esp nice
AA carpark
Staff tan whom give us wat we deserve or not deserve to get like er rr welfare - off, half day, work less jus like a father figure to us n of course thank him for giving me the OVERSEA leave....
So ya see hw great n blessing GOD had given me , so isnt i shld be thankful n not grumble...
Oh yeah was made to solo for choir today - tis one short short 6 words verse haaa dammn it i got ugly voice.
till end , everyone cheer up come on GO gO GO... b back on 11th dec ....
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:11 AM and they said..
MISS lists
I really miss some lovely peepszzzz right now and really hope to meet up with them right away...
- Small rach girl - the every so pretty n sweet girl tat glitter n bottoms everything up (WRU i miss u)
- Jacq - the elegant "tai tai" girl , eh show urself girl
- Sandy - the ever let me worried girl
- Shirley - blur queen miss ya wru died to
- Sophie - come out gorgeous
- Mervin
- Weiren - the self confessed shuai ge
- Marcus - the vainer vain pot than me come out
- Edwin teo big cow - my hubby where art thou?
- Shaun wifey - WRU, flirting with other man???
- Darren yeo
- Shazlee
- Claudia
- Jessica -though i jus saw u last wk but really missed u already
- Mingren
- Zhehan
- KEnny
- Everyone
Arughhhhhhhhh i jus MISS EVERYONE IN MY LIFE
hw i wish to put everyone of u into a bottle so when i miss u i jus put u out n chilled with
i wish huh .... i wish.....
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:10 AM and they said..
Saturday, December 04, 2004
HIATUS FOR 6 DAYS
2 MORE DAYS TO MALAYSIA DAY... counting DOWN
Going to my church retreat from 6/12/04 till 9/12/04 Kota Tinggi, our XIAN HOUSE first ever retreat since there. After which , the YOuth including ME ME ME ME ME and ME will go up to KL for more fun n shopping shopping shopping eating eating eating till 11/12/04 finally back to SINGAPORE . Hehzz~~~
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
2:01 AM and they said..
UPDATES
Sorry peepszz been busy lazy n all sort of excuses to make myself sound more erm ... self righteous!!!
hehz anw....been 2 mths since i last updated . To sum up all, i've out of hell and am in heaven.
The Old self Fatt is BACK with a vengence heezzz
No more fit zai and back to fat zai liao cos i gain back 2 kgs sobzz sobzzz....
Oct 19 - See my specialist @ CGH and was urged strongly to get out of course(OOC) was given 7days MC but bargained with her to 3days instead
Oct 22 - Endosed my letter and was officially OOC
Nov 8 - Posted to Sispec HQ bcos no longer of use to the bloody CWO as i cannot do guard duty
ROTTED for 2 days almost grow Mushrooms whole day nothing to do there hai~
Nov 11 - Attach to SFT AA (Asia Aerospace) carpark under Staff Tan
Staff Tan fav saying!!!..... I put u in Sin Ming rd ah..... CB
Shift work in AA carpark for me as follow:
Monday - 6am to 1pm
Tuesday - 6am to 1pm
Wednesday - 1pm to 7.30pm
Thursday - 1pm to 7.30pm
Friday - 1pm to 7.30pm
Saturday - 6am to 1pm (alternate)
Thus, jio me out to play huh i am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for wkdays heeeeezzz
n not to mention i gt a very very nice IC whom always cover our ASSHOLE n welfare to us
also
STaff Tan whom always took great care n welfare for us, as long as we do chop chop nice nice for me.
Nov 16 - Medical appt CGH, dear doc was "gan jiong" for me when heard i still at Sispec but all were sheer shock when she know the whole scenario... lastly, ask me to go to her if ever the SAF send me back for recourse BSLC cos .... she say
IF the SAF never move, i shall not move first... haaaaaa
Nov 22 - Ask staff tan whether i could apply oversea leave, asked why n told to go for church retreat camp n yes THANK GOD, he agreed .
Nov 30 - OFFICALLY LEAVE APPROVED... YIPPEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
n had a long long long KTV session since dunno when with my khakissss though i having sore throat humppp n yes shared the good new with them ........
Dec 2,3,4 - BMTC POP we also POP with them as standing in the hot sun for 3 days checking cars ensuring traffic flow n "parents safety" (wah lau as if they never grow up dun know hw to cross the road)
UPCOMING.....
Dec 6 - 11 - Malaysia HERE I COME......
Dec 14 - Medical Appt......
*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
1:38 AM and they said..
