-----The Oc Life----

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

~OwnERSHip~

Ownership.
We own many things in life, and wish to own many things.
We love to claim possession of things and said that it is MINE.
Therefore even this thing call L-O-V-E, we wanna call it MINE.

So does being in love with each other, we claim that he/she is mine no one can touch ? Does wearing the same shirt, shoe, rings etc... means that hey WORLD we are together he/she is MINE.
Guess that is an animal instint in us that we like to leave trances of our smell or signs that this is my territory don't touch!!! Just like male cats go around their territory boundary to leave smell that marks it is theirs, or dog or wolf etc...

So it comes to the question that does keeping someone by your side yet when the relationship between you two are not working out any use???
It is like, having the body yet not the soul... jus an empty shell!!!
Or when she does not love you anymore yet u die die hold on to it and never let it go. What good does it begets u???
Don't you jus hurting yourself more and the other party and ppl ard you who cares for u???

Maybe he/she may be thinking that if i do that, if i try hard enough, if i persevere enough. she may comes back to me she may loves me one day. But how many times does it happen in real?

Sometimes letting go of hand is the best choice.
Seeing the one you love to find happiness n am happy is better to keep them by ya side and was not happy.

PONDER ON IT

it reminds me of a story:
one day the mother told her child, mummy going to supermarket i am gonna buy u alot of sweets choco n ice cream, but in return u cannot touch nor eat the eats in the cupboard. the child nod... when the mother is gone he thought to himself... if i jus get one handful of sweets jus one... so he went and opent he lid put his hand in and grab a handful as much as he could grab... but he hand is stuck in the jug, he jus could not get it out... after a while the mother got home and see it, told him look i brought ur fav ice cream and lots of goodies. it's all for u why u dun listen to mother? all you have to do it to

LET GO OF YOUR HAND
n u will get out!!!He listened and released his hand and get his hand out and smiled... and he realised that only he released his hand or he could not get the better ones.

R/s there is no right or wrong, good or bad just memories to last a lifetime.

*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
3:36 AM and they said..

On 22 May 2004 , 9 plus
My god father passed away
Oh God comfort the family, esp my God ma...

Thru out the whole funeral, she had remained strong and not drama enough. She protrayed calm and steady. Strong woman i ever met.

During the first nite of the funeral, 23 May (sunday) she looked sad, and heard from my "god sis" she been reproachful upon herself for not taking enough care for her husband, had not done enough, everything let the maid do it , full of what if , and if i had done it myself ... he wont be he will not be he would not be ... full of remorse n regret... she is not able to get into sleep, sadness well up in her heart fully. I went up to hug her hoping to give her all my support and strength to bring her thru in that hug. I asked: " r u alrite, ok? " she answered, yeah i am ok , he left for a better place - God's side

Second night, she is better could joke abit...

Third nite, last nite of the funeral, first thing she saw me, we hugged ever so tightly, and she said .... god ma is all alone now, no one to accompany me now u must visit me and bring me out.
This words deeply cut into me and sadden me.
And wonder what came into me , i jus said simply... nah u r not alone u got me , god sis , ur sons, ur grandchild and GOD, and u bet i sure bring u out, where u wanna go? China-great wall? u got stamina to walk? nvm i employ 4 ppl to carry u up the wall.. haaaaaaaaa and she laughed and i guess it warmed her heart ba...

God ma be strong , i love you

*Angeloffriends*
was craving the OC on
3:21 AM and they said..